April 2013
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My body wants to sleep. The rest of me wants to reach into someone’s chest and tear out something squishy. It’s probably best that I live alone.
March 2013
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books
Books read so far this year:
The Hobbit- JRR Tolkien
Mindplayers- Pat Cadigan
The Warden- Anthony Trollope
The Dead Zone- Stephen King
Hyperion- Dan Simmons
Still working on:
The Snow Queen- Joan Vinge
Titus Groan- Mervyn Peake
The Three Impostors- Arthur Machen
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today is the day I get my life in order
today is the day I get my life in order
today is the day...
February 2013
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I wish I felt worthy of this
I wish I knew what was happening
I wish I hadn’t wasted so much time
I wish I wasn’t so terrified
I wish they would understand
I wish there wasn’t so much pressure
I wish I was a better person
I wish this was easy
I wish she wasn’t so far away
I wish I could slow this down
I wish I was less certain
I wish…
No, wait
I should save...
January 2013
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Something strange happened last night as I was driving home. I’ve always known that I have really good reflexes when I drive. There was one night when I was driving past the mall, on a road I’d taken thousands of times. All of a sudden my car started to slow down. I had put my foot on the brakes automatically before I had even seen it. Then the Fire truck turned on its running lights...
Watched all three Lost Boys movies tonight. It’s a shame that they get exponentially worse. Was going to do some sort of write up on that, but I just spent an hour on an essay on The Dead Zone and I really should be getting to sleep. I have no idea what I’m doing tomorrow.
Driving across mid-Michigan listening to The Dead Zone. Not really sure what town I’m in. Nice place though. GPS says the place is called Hillside. I wonder which Stephen King story I’m walking into.
Vacation plans just got turned around. I’m leaving South Bend In. on Friday morning and I have to be in Chicago on Saturday afternoon. I guess I’ll just explore the Midwest and look for book stores. Any suggestions about things to do in the midwest on a Friday night?
December 2012
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Read 25 books this year. Might be a few others that I’m forgetting. Bold were good. Starred* were very good. Strike-through were utterly terrible. All but 5 of these were audio books. Going to try and read more real books.
Carrie by Stephen King*
Old Man’s War by John Scalzi
Four And Twenty Black Birds by Cherie Priest
Virtual Light by William Gibson
This Day All Gods Die by...
my neighbor’s shower makes a terrible screaming sound.
The good part is that they are considerate enough to use it only in the afternoons and evenings.
The bad part is that on the evenings when I’m actually home they always start it just as I’m about to eat dinner.
Like right now.
I wish I was ten years younger. If only because ten years ago there was someone to talk to in the middle of the night.
It’s a very strange day when you find yourself in a situation in which you could destroy someone’s marriage simply by saying what you happen to be thinking at that moment.
I said nothing.
November 2012
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I don’t like to leave my apartment after dark. In order to get back in I have to talk the security guard at the front gate.
I’m procrastinating my way into a panic attack.
October 2012
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Did Biden just interrupt Ryan by saying “bububu”?
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I think ghosts just stole my manuscript
Something really weird is going on here. I’ve had a really hard time being productive today. I spent most of the day cataloging a collection of horror novel covers that I scanned last week, which is fun but really low on the list of things I need to be doing. There were a few hours left in the evening so I decided that I had to get something important done, but I was having trouble deciding...
August 2012
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Since childhood I’ve had the strange notion that I should never anger insects, in case they happen to suddenly grow in size and attack me in revenge.
Since then I’ve come to realise that insects are not so vindictive, aside from hive insects which have their own deranged psychology, and that it would be silly to project such emotions onto them.
I am still very certain however that...
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So, I’ve been procrastinating about something really really important for over three weeks, mostly because I didn’t want to get yelled at and denied because it was really my fault and those were things that I deserved. Today I got fed up and had to deal with it, but I chose to use a proxy and get someone else submit the query and read the response. I was too ashamed and had to leave...
July 2012
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I wish I could stop feeling inexplicably hopeful about my future. It’s just another reason to procrastinate.
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Are Humans Chasing Us?
I need to get some writing done, if only so I can sleep.
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My head on the door was a dream
June 2012
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Am I the only one who gets incredibly self conscious about everything I do after submiting an application?
I find myself thinking ridiculous thoughts like:
“Oh My God, I’ll never get that internship if they find out that I’m sitting here watching star trek at 3am and that I just accidentally rubbed yogurt into my eye!”
May 2012
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I really want to like the show Girls, but I just don’t like Hannah. She’s too spoiled and entitled. I know in a way her, and the other girls on the show, are not the usual selfless paradigms that you see on television. This is meant to show something more real, because sometimes real people are insecure and petulant and selfish. But that hint of realism is what bothers me. Are kids...
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Tonight’s activity: Grabbing as many academic articles about Vampires, monsters, and Young Adult Dystopias as I can before my JSTOR access expires.
Just got a call from my mother, she was asking when my graduation ceremony was and how she could get tickets. I had to tell her that it was last friday and that I had skipped it. She was mortified, for some reason. I said that she and my father had never asked me about the graduation. She said that she had been afraid to, thinking that I would object and not let them go (not really that far from...
April 2012
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myinnermonoblog replied to your post: Continuance of a theme
Congrats! You should have waited until exactly ten seconds before. That’s the true heart of the procrastinator. :-p
Thanks. Now I have to actually find something to do with my life.
I thought about waiting until the last few seconds, but the dropbox system at my school is not that reliable. Sometimes it crashes or freezes up. I thought...
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Continuance of a theme
The paper portion of my take-home final for my last class was assigned back in January.
It is due in 7 minutes.
I completed all other assignments for all other classes 12 days ago.
I started research for this paper 6 hours and 49 minutes ago.
I started writing this paper 3 hours and 10 minutes ago.
I finished this paper 18 minutes ago.
I submitted this paper 11 minutes ago.
I feel like I...
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Interesting BBC podcast about the sinister and...
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My philosophy teacher just thanked me for all my thoughtful comments during class and said that I added a lot to the experience.
I almost regret tearing him a new asshole on the evaluation form.
Am I the only one that’s bothered by the fact that philosophy dot com is a make-up company?
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Du Haste (Titanic Mix)
I found this on one of my...
March 2012
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About to go to a philosophy conference.
I can’t find my pants.
Morning whining
I just realized that I can get one of those Fix-a-flat cans and use that instead of taking my car in and getting the tire fixed. Probably cheaper, and I won’t have to talk to tire people. Win/Win.
I finished the magazine I was editing last night and this time I asked for feedback on how I’m doing. The guy never really tells me what I’m supposed to be editing for. Grammar...
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